Running lost

Soccer has officially started spent all last weekend in Rockford (90 minutes from home) at the seeding tournament. I was exhausted by the end of the weekend and no work got done. I got an email last week from a friend letting me know that another friend was coming into town and wanted to get together. The problem is that the person coming into town was one of my closests friends and about a year ago she just disappeared out of my life, stopped calling. She was going through personal issues and I must have been the only one that told her the truth. I have never been able to stand back and let a friend hurt themselves without speaking up. I always thought that's what friends were for. I guess not everyone wants to hear the truth and would rather live in fantasy land. I was so torn about going on Sunday, but I broke down and went. It was wierd and she knew I was upset and hurt. I didn't say a word, there were two other women there and I didn't think it was an appropriate coversation in front of a group of people. My boyfriend was pissed I didn't tell her how I felt at dinner. It's hard especially since I understand why she disappeared. I know she has been in a bad place for a long time, with her marriage and then with child custody issues with her ex. I have been there, when I was married I disappeared on all my friends for years, I was embarrassed that I was so low and didn't want to talk to any one.

When we said our good byes, I told her to call me because we need to talk. My boyfriend doesn't think she's going to call, maybe not, but at this point I don't even think I care. She can't hurt me a second time.

Business is slow. Don't know how to pick up new weddings. I have the bridal show coming up, but i've had a mental block on how to prepare for it. I am so close to just going back to school getting my teaching degree and getting a real job. I just need a bit of security.