Running lost

Soccer has officially started spent all last weekend in Rockford (90 minutes from home) at the seeding tournament. I was exhausted by the end of the weekend and no work got done. I got an email last week from a friend letting me know that another friend was coming into town and wanted to get together. The problem is that the person coming into town was one of my closests friends and about a year ago she just disappeared out of my life, stopped calling. She was going through personal issues and I must have been the only one that told her the truth. I have never been able to stand back and let a friend hurt themselves without speaking up. I always thought that's what friends were for. I guess not everyone wants to hear the truth and would rather live in fantasy land. I was so torn about going on Sunday, but I broke down and went. It was wierd and she knew I was upset and hurt. I didn't say a word, there were two other women there and I didn't think it was an appropriate coversation in front of a group of people. My boyfriend was pissed I didn't tell her how I felt at dinner. It's hard especially since I understand why she disappeared. I know she has been in a bad place for a long time, with her marriage and then with child custody issues with her ex. I have been there, when I was married I disappeared on all my friends for years, I was embarrassed that I was so low and didn't want to talk to any one.

When we said our good byes, I told her to call me because we need to talk. My boyfriend doesn't think she's going to call, maybe not, but at this point I don't even think I care. She can't hurt me a second time.

Business is slow. Don't know how to pick up new weddings. I have the bridal show coming up, but i've had a mental block on how to prepare for it. I am so close to just going back to school getting my teaching degree and getting a real job. I just need a bit of security.

My Vacation is Over

My vacation has officially ended, soccer has started. I have spent every evening from 5 - 7:30 this week at the practice field with Maurice, and there is more this evening as well as a tournament about an hour from home all weekend. I love my son, but I can't wait for him to start driving so I don't have to sit through 2 hours of practice 4 days a week.

Spent a few hours with the couple getting married in October yesterday. She is leaving everything up to me including choosing the unity candle, bridesmaid dresses and flower girl dresses. I'm hoping this wedding goes over really well and I get a ton of referrals from it.

The travel business is painfully slow, really thinking about turing it into purely a destination wedding business.

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Friday Morning

Good morning everyone:


It's Friday morning, I have two loads of laundry in and i've done my daily wedding and travel tip.

Now what? I know I have a ton to do, but all I want to do is sleep, it is so miserable looking outside.

But, ok i'll start the phone call and scheduling. I need to figure out how to grow the destination wedding clientelle and I need to prepare for a bridal show. No idea, what i'm going to hand out there.

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Victoria's Daily Wedding Tip: For the groom, don't limit yourself to the tuxedo. A great suit (dark or light colored depending on the season) for a formal wedding is just as elegant.

I am trying so hard to get into work mode. When we got back I learned that my 88 year grandmother was finally in the nursing home. I went to visit her early Saturday morning and the minute I walked in there tears came to my eyes. Not only was it horrible to see my dad's mom sitting there (my father died 6 years ago) but I could see my life flash before my eyes. It doesn't matter that i'm 35 I could see into my future and it scared me. After my dad died at such a young age, it put fire under my ass. He was the last person you would expect to get sick and die. He was so healthy and he still got pancreatic cancer. After his death, early death became a reality in my life. Before that it happened to other people never us, now I realize it can happen to us.

I've always been motivated, but after his death my I have this new urgency and almost a choking fear that I live with and fight daily. I am generally the person people come to for calmness and for rationality yet, I can't seem to be completely rational when it comes to this. On top of the urgency it made me colder to death and illness. I am definitely less empathetic.

The goal is to really enjoy my life and watch my son turn into hopefully an amazing adult.

Wish me luck!!!

More Playa del Carmen

Good morning everyone!!!

I know I wrote a long review yesterday. Today I wanted to share a story.

Maurie and I took a cab to Playa Del Carmen from our hotel. It was a 5 minute cab ride and I saw all these people walking. We walked around Playa, we've been there a few times and he's a 13 year old boy so not the most exciting outing. I bought him a small $8.00 strawberry milkshake and I got an ice coffee. On the way back I thought it would be fun to walk back to the hotel. I was like it's a 15 minute walk, it will be fun. Well I was wrong, 15 minutes turned into 45 minutes in 105 degree weather direct sunlight, no breeze and flip flops on boiling hot cobble stones. We barely spoke on the way back. When we finally made it back to the hotel, we sprinted for the bar, sucked down ice cold drinks and staggered back to our room for airconditioning. I was wearing a white tank top and looked like I just walked out of a wet t-shirt contest and his shirt was drenched. I sat on the bed for 5 minutes and when I stood up to change into my bathing suit, my knees buckled, we laughed so hard, we had tears coming out of our eyes. I think it was hilarious Maurice not so much.

Victoria's Daily Wedding Tip: Give a step child a ring (or another token) to signify they are part of the union.